This past June I received the heart breaking diagnosis of cancer. The news in itself would devastate anyone. But for me it came as shock and felt like a cruel joke. I was still grieving the loss of my mother who passed away just nine months before and I was a bride to be just a month from my wedding day. My upcoming wedding was the very bright spot in what had been one of the most difficult times in my life. And felt like a turning point to which I could begin a new chapter. The diagnosis of cancer threatened to steal that joy once. I didn’t understand why I was walking through this, but I knew that no matter what God was walking with me and his timing is perfect even if I couldn’t see it. So I chose to trust in him and find peace in that. Just days after my July wedding I began chemotherapy and learned that knowing of chemo and knowing chemo are two very different things. Going through treatment was going to require a mental strength to overcome the many days of feeling sick. To combat the negative forces of cancer— I learned to focus on the blessings in my life while I waited on God’s healing. Even when things are tough, if you look for something positive you will almost always find it. So each day since I was diagnosed in June, I chose to take inventory of all the ways God has blessed me during this time. And as I did this, I could see how God was at work in my life.
On December 28th, I had my last treatment and with my loved ones there, I rang the bell at MD Anderson signifying that I was on onward and upward. I can say with a grateful and relieved spirit that I am cancer free today. I’ve learned that life is both beautiful and painful—sometimes all at once. I experienced moments of beauty that fueled my weary spirit and gave me the momentum I needed to make it through the toughest of days.